There are ways to disjoin and disengage yourself from a life that you lead
And you have led it well so far, there is your respite. If it is
Your fault then I suppose there’s nowhere but up
A waste of emptiness is a place to call home
Stretch yourself even thinner for a moment for a lifetime of ease
(Gotta spend money to spend money)
I can tread water but I cannot swim

The bosses are unforgiving hands are stained from dustbins
From earnest passions from memo ink
(Save our leadership)
The walls were draped in it every night, either nothing or everything is
Given you don’t choose
I hear that if you are at it an hour longer it will kick in
Only a second from a lucky break

Good fortune is what you need. You weren’t endowed with it
By serendipity or happenstance or hard work or II or III or IV
What you have can be so easily destroyed and what you have is
Wrong. Six out of seven is so far beyond worthless
(We’ll dream it for free)
Close has never meant anything, and close is the difference. The difference between
Eviction and another month of trying not to get evicted

Solutions are easy to find
You’ll no longer have to see your value and goods in this light
That was the past
Black diamond tapes forgotten in earnest fetch a mediocre price
That was the present
Other people want what you don’t have
(That you need to be trying right now)

(If you can beat ‘em)
1. Attach a siphon to your neighbor’s waterline
2. Grocery stores give away produce boxes once they’re done using them
3. Some grocery stores have worse security than others.MKV
4. No Sale -> Other -> The $100 bills are under the till
5. Keeping yourself alive is a federal offense punishable by up to 10 years in prison
6. Or money

Unending pain and suffering is not covered under BCBS
Vision is shaky hands are red throat is begging
You need an out you need an outlet
(They birthed the rest of their lives I’m just starting contractions)

You want everyone and everything to apologize profusely and slice itself
Open on your Salvation Army rug
And you know you are at least partially to blame. You know that deep inside your being

Is this really all there is
(I couldn’t have another bite I’m famished)
There must be something to it, something else
Some secret I don’t know
Some lesson I haven’t learned
Some penitence. Some character flaw. Some loophole. Some credit.
Some empty room in my house where it’s all kept

If this is high water I fear what hell has to offer me
I am not easily exploited.
Healthy blood